Start with new people 
New friends 
New lovers 
Just forget everything that happened 

Even though I am not always around 
You know I’m there to think of you 
To help you with problems 
To just be a listening ear 
A shoulder which you can use to dry your tears 

Even tough you have the wisdom of someone 
Who is much older then you are 
You‘re still a little girl 
Who just needs a hug 
A friendly word 

You are still someone who needs 
Love 
Someone who is desperate for 
The thing no-one can name 

A shining star on the sky 
It is you 
A sparkling diamond 
It is you 

Someone will see it 
Someone will appreciate it 
Someone will see 
What kind of amazing person you are 
Someone will see what the future is 
With you and him 

Love you! 

For charelle…

Being alone 
Knowing 

You hear the rain 
Wherever you are 
You hear the wind 
Even though you are far away 

Being together 
Alone 

Thinking 
Fantasizing 
Dreaming 

You and me 
Somewhere 
Together 
Listening to the rain 

To be in each others arms 
To be together 
To be one 
To be 

Even though the rain will be heard 
From great distances 
I’ll keep you in my heart 
And let you in there 
Until life is ended 

I want you at my side 
I want you near me 
I want you to love 
I want you 

To be forever 
One 

You make it real for me. 

©JanTjewiL

I talked to you 
You talked to me 
We talked 
And it happened 

I touched you 
You touched me 
We touched 
And it happened 

I kissed you 
You kissed me 
We kissed 
And it happened 

I hugged you 
You hugged me 
We hugged 
And it happened 

We had a great night 
Without even knowing 
The name of the other 
Still, 
It happened 

I looked at you 
A flash of light marked the change 
We were changed 
Without knowing it from the start 

I loved you 
You loved me 
We loved 
And we loved. 

I met you 
You met me 
We met 
And we fell in love again 

I wrote you a letter 
It couldn’t go on 
We were to different 
And still, 
I loved you 

You wrote me a letter 
Back, 
You understood me, 
Understood my feelings 

But at the end, you wrote 

Ps. I love You

©JanTjewiL 2008

Nu was het zover… 
We stapten in het vliegtuig, en eindelijk, na 4 jaar verlangend wachten mocht ik ook belanden in het meest zuidelijke puntje van 
Spanje. 

Nadat we ons hotel hadden opgezocht, kreeg ik het advies om mijn sleutel om mijn arm te doen, en het nummer zo goed in mijn hoofd te prenten zodat ik het zelfs nog zou onthouden als ik dronken was. 

De eerste avond viel mij tegen, we gingen naar een klein kroegje, weinig leuke mensen en ik was best wel teleurgesteld. Was dit nou het grote Spanje, van al die mooie verhalen? 

De avond erna gingen we eindelijk echt uit. 
Toen ik naarbinnen stapte, voelde ik de hitte van de massa over me heen stromen, en na twee drankjes hield ik me niet meer in. Ik had mijn doelwit al gezien, en al dansend ging ik op hem af. 

Hij gaf mij zijn hand, en samen dansten we, op discomuziek, een tango. 
Even later gingen we naar buiten, en we wandelden samen over de pier. Toen pas wisselden we de 1e woorden. 
Ik vertelde hem dat ik Maria heette, en uit Nederland kwam. 
Hij noemde zichzelf Josef, was 21 en woonde vlakbij. 
Samen liepen we hand in hand over het strand, en toen we weer bij de pier kwamen nam hij mijn hand in zijn hand, drukte er een kus op, en vertrok.

Don’t you miss the moments?

We spend together in an endless summer.

Don’t you miss the tear we shared?

Every night I’m waiting for a call,

Every place we went to

Remembers me of you

Leaving the city is no option.

Sometimes I walk to your store,

And watch you doing your thing,

Longing for a touch,

Longing to look in your eyes.

Can’t you see how much I miss you?

Forgiveness is al you need to give me,

And still you can’t.

I’m sorry…

Painful eyes,

Thoughts of dreams,

Fly,

Trough my mind.

I look to the other half,

Of our bed.

It’s empty,

I see a small,

White peace of paper.

Why.

Is it that you’re leaving?

Is it…

Many thoughts…

Written on it is,

One word,

Love

Just say it,

Perfection.

How do you think that tastes?

Once I wanted to be perfect,

Once I wanted to be the one,

For You.

Once I wished you were right beside me,

Now is wish you just need me.

I can’t be perfect,

Can’t be the best.

I have so much imperfections.

And now,

I know what I want.

But I’m not sure about,

You.

Can’t make it clear,

So can you help me?

A poison in my mind.

Strapping down,

Hurts inside.

Take the wave away from me,

Run away with all the pain,

Just kill my thoughts.

Just do it.

Don’t wait for me to be the one.

Create me,

Create my spirit!

Don’t try,

Just do it.

Don’t give up,

Don’t push me over the edge,

Please take it,

Please release me.

Then he said it.

After ten hours it became,

A scream.

Everyone was shocked,

Started to run to him,

Taking care of him,

But he just said…. Nothing.

The missed Her love

Finally they took his mobile,

Searched the name he was screaming.

Called her,

She came.

He watched the door,

When she entered.

Clear as the sun.

She,

She entered his silent world.

He started to talk,

Started, and couldn’t stop.

And she, she was the first one,

Who really,

Listened.